Black & White, Yin & Yang, Rich & Poor, Denna & Dallas

I like the idea of opposites. Things not meshing together because they are not meant to. This design created by God is for a reason. I am not one for questioning Gods design or his purpose for why things happen. However, I am one for admiring the creativeness of God's hand. I was a witness of something I was very blessed to see. It was Christmas eve and my family and I were at our home churches candle light service. When it came time to light each one of our candles we all did so and listened to the preachers inspirational words. The words were strong and meaningful, I was struck with emotion when I heard them. Nothing prepared me though for the affect it had on my children. I looked to my left at Dallas my 8 year old son with his lit candle in his little hand and crocodile tears in both eyes. My son was getting emotional after hearing the preacher talk about Christ being the light of our lives. How much Christ loves all of us. How we ourselves as
Christians can and should be a light for weaker people by showing them christ's love through our lives. After seeing this in my young sons eyes brought me to my knees emotionally. I felt joy that he can understand what it feels to get emotional. I felt convicted that I was being moved by a certain kind of service, rather then just being moved by God's presence in my life. I also had the privilege of feeling the great blessing of pride. Yes pride, pride that my son felt Gods presence in his own life. I am blessed everyday by my childrens differences. During my sons emotional time I glanced over at Denna. My beautiful 11 year old little girl was playing with the candle wax. She had no tears in her eyes and was wondering where we were having dinner that night. I'll be honest at first I was dissapointed that her reaction to the service wasn't emotional or moving to her at all. My thought was how could she not feel anything?? It only took me a several hours
to realize that by asking the question why didn't she feel anything I was actually asking God why did you make my kids different?? When I said that to myself I was mad that I could even think such a thing. You see I'm blessed that my children are so different. I want my kids to have their own minds, their own opinions, and have independent emotions. If I said why they are so different I question Gods plan for their lives. I think Gods plan for Dallas will allow his emotions of compassion and sensitivity to be used to help others. Denna's strong personality causes her to be tough skinned and a hard shell to crack, but will help others by showing strength. She will also need that tough skin to deal with issues in her life. I'm very happy with how Christ bring things to light when the time is right and your mind is wide open. Ironicly on Christmas eve God gave me a gift. It was the gift of seeing the beauty of my childrens differences. Publicly I just want
to say thank you God for our two children, I am truly amazed at your artist hand when I look at their faces.

Keeping It Skinny,
FlacoJake